Friday, November 23, 2012

My baby boy has finally gotten his first two teeth! 
Man I thought they'd never come!
Last week his two bottom teeth came in at the same time. He was a little fussy and in a little bit of pain, but we had some baby Tylenol on hand which helped him out alot. His teething also caused him to have a cold. Some nights were terrible due to him not being able to breathe and the non stop coughing. I felt so bad for him. But they've come through and he is doing just fine now!

I tried to take a picture of his teeth but he would not cooperate! 
But I think you can see them in at least 1 of these pictures haha.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Words cannot explain the joy and happiness that I am about to tell.
It happened. It FINALLY happened.

And consistently I might add :)

I am Thrilled

For about 1.5 weeks now, Ben has slept a minimum of 8 hours a night.
Recently he has been sleeping 10!
(Minus the one night he was sick, cough and a cold)

All we had to do was put him in the living room for bedtime and let him scream it out for 2 nights (which was seriously only 30 minutes). And when I say 'scream it out', all I mean is that when would cry, I would go comfort him every 10 min or so.
For those who don't believe in this method...start believing!!! Because it's awesome!!

So proud of my boy!
And SOOOOO unbelievably grateful for those who showed us love and support
through these tough sleepless times! We love you all!
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Not So Fun Fair

This past Saturday our school put on a little Fair.

jungle gyms
blow-up obstacle courses

But it's all fun and games until someone gets hurt....

So we come up to this one booth that had 3 bowls of Hot Peppers. Hot, Very Hot, and Extreme Hot. I thought to myself, I've had hot peppers before and it really wasn't that bad! Little did I know that these weren't at all like what i've eaten in the past. So I chose the Hot Pepper. I put the whole pepper into my mouth and it wasn't so bad at first, but just a few seconds later, the real heat hit struck me hard..... and I mean hard!!
Instantly tears came to my eyes and I started to sweat! The heat was so overwhelming that I was kind of out of it! They had little chocolates on the table to help with the heat, but it wasn't enough....I felt like I was dying!

Luckily Maikal had boughten a full thing of Cotton Candy just before coming to this booth. So I just started downing that Cotton Candy like nobody's business! (in case you didn't know, sugar and milk are the best things for hot foods like these). We searched for a fountain and were lucky to be close to one on campus. PHEW! Man did that cold water and sugar ever feel fantastic in my mouth.

The pain was still there but it was bearable to the point where I could just move on and hopefully never make a mistake like that ever again!
About 5 minutes, my stomach felt funny.....the sound of loud gurgles started to happen which lead to something very horrible.........I needed to get to a bathroom...and fast!!! Let me tell you....if you ever need to clean out your system, a hot pepper will very much do it for you haha.
Needless to say we had to cut the night short and go home.
Talk about a Party Pooper ;)
Monday, November 5, 2012
My Poor Babe

It all started about ten days ago. I noticed this rash on Ben's front. I thought not too much of it and treated it like a normal rash with creme and baby powder. After a while I saw that it was not getting better. In fact, it looked like it was getting worse! I contacted my aunt Christy to see if she could help (she is a nurse). I gave her the symptoms and she came back with the conclusion that Ben had Thrush! He is in alot of pain and it breaks my heart that this is happening to him :(

For those who do not know what Thrush is, it is a fungal bacterial that occurs either on the bottom or mouth. It thrives on moisture and heat. Living in Hawaii where its hot and humid is becoming a problem right now..... It also feed on baby powder, which is why it was getting worse! bad.

I had no idea what this was so I looked it up and found home remedies that I could try. It said that Tea Tree was a really could treatment. Luckily I had some face tea tree creme in my cabinet! So I just slathered that on and it's seeming to work fine. I had a friend from mommy playgroup give my some tea tree oil and coconut oil mixed. This will be my first day of real treatments so wish us luck!

Another good remedy is to let him sit in warm water and baking soda.
Ben really enjoyed this little treatment!

I will keep every one posted on how he is doing.

Also in other news......I need to vent. Hopefully writing down my feelings will make me feel better...

I dread going sleep. I dread it because I know that it will not be a good one and I will be very grumpy and short tempered. Ben is STILL waking up 2 times in the night!!!

Let me walk through his schedules....

He wakes up around 7 every morning.
He eats every 3 hours. 3 baby food meals a day and 2 snack bottles. I am also trying to stretch in between feedings so he can go longer without feeding.
He takes 2-3 naps a day. 1 in the morning for about 1-1.5 hrs and 1 in the afternoon for 1-2 hrs. And sometimes he takes a 1/2 hour nap at 6. 
He goes to bed between 8-9pm
He will wake up at 11:30 and then again at 4:30. I give him a bottle both times. The 4:30 wakeup is the most difficult. It is really hard for him to go back to sleep lately. This may be due to his Thrush so im trying not to get too upset over that. But even without the thrush he will still wake up twice a night.

He takes his naps just fine! He will fuss a little bit and I go back in and put his soother back in his mouth, pat him on the back and he will be out! It's pretty great.

He has also become more fussy and needy lately. Just another thing to make be frustrated.....I try just letting him scream out his little tantrums in his playpen.

I am the kind of person who NEEDS her sleep. And I am NOT exaggerating when I say need. Sometimes I get so angry that I will just scream and swear and say things I don't mean. I think to did I get stuck with the baby that never sleeps through the night! I hate it. I hate it soooo much. And I hate when Im like this, but reality is that I straight up turn into a monster when Im not im basically a monster the majority of the time.

I CANNOT even imagine having another kid until this one starts sleeping. I don't think I could do it. Sometimes i think 1 kid is enough and that I never want to go through this again. Because it's just so hard...... on everyone. So if things don't start changing....I don't think we will be starting baby #2 for a long long time...It's really sad that they won't be close in age. But I think having a happy mom is more important. 

Some of you may know this already...but...I did, and still do, suffer from post partum depression. For a really long time after Ben was born, I was miserable. I was getting 5 hours of interrupted sleep a night, he was and is still a fussy baby, I had the breast feeding problems...etc etc. It was all too much. Having Ben in our lives has been both amazing and awful. I know that sounds horrible. And I totally love my son and he does bring so much joy to my life and he is seriously the cutest little baby ever, but it's just been very hard being a mom. I see other moms and how much they love it and that their child has brought so much love and happiness to their lives. And I want that. I want everything to be full of love, happiness, patience, and laughter. I didn't want to have kids for years, so I feel like I was forced into a role that I was just not ready for. 

So Ive decided that tonight's the's the night I am going to let Ben cry all night long. I will do it for as long as it takes. It's time for change. Call me cruel....but it is necessary. 
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