Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Dream Big

One of our big dreams is to build a house!
You could say I have expensive taste, but much of these pictures are very exaggerated!
Alot of my dreams have come true in the past 2 years

  • Got proposed to in the perfect way with the perfect ring
  • Married the man of my dreams
  • Blessed with an extremely adorable baby....even though he was unexpected ;)
  • Moved to a tropical island
  • And these are only a few....
So why not have my dream house!??

But something that Maikal and I have been talking alot about is what we want in a house.
We would love to settle down in Alberta where its close to family and friends. 
We want to build our house just outside of a city or town where its surrounded by trees and fields.
OK so here are some picture to better describe what we have been dreaming of!

I love english, spanish kind of feel to the outside of the house
We love love love pillars and balconies
And yes I know these kinds of houses are like millions of dollars,
but this is just the style I want :)
It doesn't necessarily have to be this big....
even though it would be nice!

We want a big open, tall roofed living room
We love open space!

We need to have a big dining table
Both our side have huge 'get-togethers' and it would be
so nice to seat everyone around a nice big table :)
And again...tall ceilings!

We dream of a double staircase when you first walk into the front door.
soooo beautiful.....*sigh*

I need a large open kitchen with plenty of counter space!
And I just loved this Idea with the other side of the counter as a bench space.

Who doesn't want secret rooms?
I know we will have at least 2.

Oh the walk in closet....every girls dream...

We would really love to have this coming up to my house :)
So whimsical! 

And of course I want a large backyard!
I love hosting big parties!

So am I dreaming Big?? Ya maybe..
But dreams do come true!!!

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

When I first moved to Hawaii, I would do 2 things.....stay inside or go on a walk. I had no one to hang out with! I felt so bored and alone alot of the time. It wasn't until this one girl Cari decided to create a playgroup for us mom's in and around TVA (temple view aprmts). This literally changed my life! Not only did I make great friends, but Ben made some as well! I have especially grown close to 2 of the mom's in playgroup, Cari and Lauren. Cari has a little girl Roxi (18mo's) and Lauren has a little boy Tayden (14 mo's). We all have so much fun together and I love that our kids can play with each other. Every Mother needs mommy friends. We help each other with everything and anything we can. We can relate with each other and tell each other all the stories about being a mom. It's so much fun and I highly recommend anyone out there who is a mom who doesn't have any mommy friends, to get one asap! It will make your life easier and much more fun!

This is Lauren. She is an amazing friend and fantastic mother. 
She has really motivated me to get back in shape!
She use to play for the BYUH Volleyball team and still managed to 
keep her rockin bod after having Tayden!
so jealous.....

This is Cari. She's pretty much BA.
She is currently prego with her second baby and she looks amazing!
Cari is so solid and is always fun to be around.

Roxi. She's a Babe.

Tayden. Lady Killer.

Sara and yaya

As you can see we spend alot of our time at the beach.
All of the kids enjoy it! I mean...who doesn't love the beach!
Friday, November 23, 2012

My baby boy has finally gotten his first two teeth! 
Man I thought they'd never come!
Last week his two bottom teeth came in at the same time. He was a little fussy and in a little bit of pain, but we had some baby Tylenol on hand which helped him out alot. His teething also caused him to have a cold. Some nights were terrible due to him not being able to breathe and the non stop coughing. I felt so bad for him. But they've come through and he is doing just fine now!

I tried to take a picture of his teeth but he would not cooperate! 
But I think you can see them in at least 1 of these pictures haha.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Words cannot explain the joy and happiness that I am about to tell.
It happened. It FINALLY happened.

And consistently I might add :)

I am Thrilled

For about 1.5 weeks now, Ben has slept a minimum of 8 hours a night.
Recently he has been sleeping 10!
(Minus the one night he was sick, cough and a cold)

All we had to do was put him in the living room for bedtime and let him scream it out for 2 nights (which was seriously only 30 minutes). And when I say 'scream it out', all I mean is that when would cry, I would go comfort him every 10 min or so.
For those who don't believe in this method...start believing!!! Because it's awesome!!

So proud of my boy!
And SOOOOO unbelievably grateful for those who showed us love and support
through these tough sleepless times! We love you all!
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Not So Fun Fair

This past Saturday our school put on a little Fair.

jungle gyms
blow-up obstacle courses

But it's all fun and games until someone gets hurt....

So we come up to this one booth that had 3 bowls of Hot Peppers. Hot, Very Hot, and Extreme Hot. I thought to myself, I've had hot peppers before and it really wasn't that bad! Little did I know that these weren't at all like what i've eaten in the past. So I chose the Hot Pepper. I put the whole pepper into my mouth and it wasn't so bad at first, but just a few seconds later, the real heat hit struck me hard..... and I mean hard!!
Instantly tears came to my eyes and I started to sweat! The heat was so overwhelming that I was kind of out of it! They had little chocolates on the table to help with the heat, but it wasn't enough....I felt like I was dying!

Luckily Maikal had boughten a full thing of Cotton Candy just before coming to this booth. So I just started downing that Cotton Candy like nobody's business! (in case you didn't know, sugar and milk are the best things for hot foods like these). We searched for a fountain and were lucky to be close to one on campus. PHEW! Man did that cold water and sugar ever feel fantastic in my mouth.

The pain was still there but it was bearable to the point where I could just move on and hopefully never make a mistake like that ever again!
About 5 minutes, my stomach felt funny.....the sound of loud gurgles started to happen which lead to something very horrible.........I needed to get to a bathroom...and fast!!! Let me tell you....if you ever need to clean out your system, a hot pepper will very much do it for you haha.
Needless to say we had to cut the night short and go home.
Talk about a Party Pooper ;)
Monday, November 5, 2012
My Poor Babe

It all started about ten days ago. I noticed this rash on Ben's front. I thought not too much of it and treated it like a normal rash with creme and baby powder. After a while I saw that it was not getting better. In fact, it looked like it was getting worse! I contacted my aunt Christy to see if she could help (she is a nurse). I gave her the symptoms and she came back with the conclusion that Ben had Thrush! He is in alot of pain and it breaks my heart that this is happening to him :(

For those who do not know what Thrush is, it is a fungal bacterial that occurs either on the bottom or mouth. It thrives on moisture and heat. Living in Hawaii where its hot and humid is becoming a problem right now..... It also feed on baby powder, which is why it was getting worse! bad.

I had no idea what this was so I looked it up and found home remedies that I could try. It said that Tea Tree was a really could treatment. Luckily I had some face tea tree creme in my cabinet! So I just slathered that on and it's seeming to work fine. I had a friend from mommy playgroup give my some tea tree oil and coconut oil mixed. This will be my first day of real treatments so wish us luck!

Another good remedy is to let him sit in warm water and baking soda.
Ben really enjoyed this little treatment!

I will keep every one posted on how he is doing.

Also in other news......I need to vent. Hopefully writing down my feelings will make me feel better...

I dread going sleep. I dread it because I know that it will not be a good one and I will be very grumpy and short tempered. Ben is STILL waking up 2 times in the night!!!

Let me walk through his schedules....

He wakes up around 7 every morning.
He eats every 3 hours. 3 baby food meals a day and 2 snack bottles. I am also trying to stretch in between feedings so he can go longer without feeding.
He takes 2-3 naps a day. 1 in the morning for about 1-1.5 hrs and 1 in the afternoon for 1-2 hrs. And sometimes he takes a 1/2 hour nap at 6. 
He goes to bed between 8-9pm
He will wake up at 11:30 and then again at 4:30. I give him a bottle both times. The 4:30 wakeup is the most difficult. It is really hard for him to go back to sleep lately. This may be due to his Thrush so im trying not to get too upset over that. But even without the thrush he will still wake up twice a night.

He takes his naps just fine! He will fuss a little bit and I go back in and put his soother back in his mouth, pat him on the back and he will be out! It's pretty great.

He has also become more fussy and needy lately. Just another thing to make be frustrated.....I try just letting him scream out his little tantrums in his playpen.

I am the kind of person who NEEDS her sleep. And I am NOT exaggerating when I say need. Sometimes I get so angry that I will just scream and swear and say things I don't mean. I think to did I get stuck with the baby that never sleeps through the night! I hate it. I hate it soooo much. And I hate when Im like this, but reality is that I straight up turn into a monster when Im not im basically a monster the majority of the time.

I CANNOT even imagine having another kid until this one starts sleeping. I don't think I could do it. Sometimes i think 1 kid is enough and that I never want to go through this again. Because it's just so hard...... on everyone. So if things don't start changing....I don't think we will be starting baby #2 for a long long time...It's really sad that they won't be close in age. But I think having a happy mom is more important. 

Some of you may know this already...but...I did, and still do, suffer from post partum depression. For a really long time after Ben was born, I was miserable. I was getting 5 hours of interrupted sleep a night, he was and is still a fussy baby, I had the breast feeding problems...etc etc. It was all too much. Having Ben in our lives has been both amazing and awful. I know that sounds horrible. And I totally love my son and he does bring so much joy to my life and he is seriously the cutest little baby ever, but it's just been very hard being a mom. I see other moms and how much they love it and that their child has brought so much love and happiness to their lives. And I want that. I want everything to be full of love, happiness, patience, and laughter. I didn't want to have kids for years, so I feel like I was forced into a role that I was just not ready for. 

So Ive decided that tonight's the's the night I am going to let Ben cry all night long. I will do it for as long as it takes. It's time for change. Call me cruel....but it is necessary. 
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Oh Maikal....

So I went to Costco today and this is what I come home to.
I arrived at my BIL Jesse's house and I see all the boys on the coach huddling around Maikal and holding ice to his hand.
Immediately I thought: "Oh no he hurt himself! Probably a deep cut or a sprain"
The boys went surfing today so it wasn't unlikely that a sprain or cut would happen.
But then I see that Maikal had put his wedding ring onto his middle finger and it was extremely red. He thought that by putting his ring onto his middle finger, it would be less likely to fall off. But to his demise, that ring had gotten stuck. As soon as he realized what was happening he started to panic! I mean who wouldn't!? So the boys tried everything to get it off! Dish soap, butter, spit, icing it, raising his hand above his head, advil.....but nothing. So we finally decided to just cut it off before it got worse.

It took about 20 minutes of sawing before it finally cut through.

Relief! He was in so much pain!

Friday, October 19, 2012

That Panic.

That Panic that comes when your mind goes to those certain possibilities.

Those Possibilities that come to your mind when you realize that:

You're Late
Your cravings become overwhelming
You seem to be going to the bathroom more often
You feel those gas bubbles in your stomach that may or may not be what you think they are
You're Moody

These are the thoughts that go through your mind when you think that it happened.....
That it happened again...

I mean hey, if it happened once it can definitely happen again.


It didn't.

It didn't happen again.

It's just me and my crazy brain that goes straight to panic mode whenever something weird happens to my body.

And then I just sit back and laugh at myself. 
Why do I get myself so worked up!
That's just me I guess :)

Don't get me wrong, I am very excited to have another baby! But not now. Not anytime soon...

The plan is to wait until we are done in Hawaii, then we will start on Baby #2.

It happens.

It happens to many of us.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

I love walks. Especially here in Hawaii. The nights are so warm, calm and quiet. It is so beautiful here and I am so blessed to live in such a wonderful place. One of the most pretty places here on the island is the Temple. It is built up on a hill so you can see it for miles. It's glorious glow is beyond beautiful, especially in the night!
For fhe we decided to take a stroll around the temple grounds. It's hard to see the real beauty of this place but hopefully we will visit there in the day soon :)

On the way back we stopped at our playground and swung on the swings!
My boys LOVE the swings haha

Funny story. While walking back to our house, we look over at this yellow buggy
and see a black cat next to a diaper on the roof. I wasn't able to take capture the cat
but at least i got the
But we thought it was funny that a cat drug a diaper on top of this car and just sat next to it!

Tonights' treat. I did not give into my temptations (thx to maikal) and had a fibre1 bar instead :)

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